I find im constantly running, never stopping. Its a rat race isnt it?
shall i attempt to explain the last few weeks of my life? here goes:
The girl ive been trying to win the affection of is dating a 24 year old man that she works with.
I recently went to dinner with a girl who was sorta stalking me, but she turned out to be a lovely girl with great looks and a similar personality to that of my own.
Now my friends tell me i should wait for the girl i started with to leave her boyfriend. that i shouldnt see other people while im out and about. that i should remain by her side hoping she will leave him at some point for me…..
Now thats all fine and dandy if your able to deal with standing every day next to the girl you didnt get, becasue you see i get to see this girl at least 3 times a day. and every time i see her face i get down in the dumps again.
Let me explain how i ment this girl,
It all started the first day of school this year. I walked into my first period class and there she was sitting in the corner, and i immediatly sat next to her. thinking to myself “wow, this girl is AMAZING! who is she? where did she come from?” well for better or for worse the class ended withount me saying a word to her. but then THERE she was again NEXT period, again i sat down near her telling myself “SAY SOMETHING YOU IDIOT!” again i sat silent, in awe of this girl and her beautiful voice.
she was not in my next class, and as i was walking to my fourth period i said to myself “what if she was in another one of my classes, wouldnt that be crazy? 3 classed with one person is UNHEARD of at my school and as i walked into math, there she was. I immediatly walked up to her and said hello, introduced myself and found out her name. Laura….sigh.
Before senior year i was a quiet kid, reserved, i didnt speak much, i had a few good friends, but i didnt go out of my way to meet people. That all changed as i got to know Laura, she changed me, and my life, for the better.
What lession will i take from this? Live in the moment my friends, dont hold back anything that has to do with these situations, Becase every time i look at her now, i think of what might have been, and what might still be.